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Ellis cooked us a delicious curry dinner with loads of vegetables today. When I first met him he only knew how to cook toast with peanut butter, so he has improved!

The nature here is beautiful, and I enjoy going for long walks with my boy. Today we ended up in a corn field, I don't think I've ever seen one before this.

Yesterday at the airport I bought a new book. Me Before You (I bought the Swedish one) seems to be everywhere now and since I heard such good things about it I've been curious. Last time I read something that was really popular I ended up disappointed after struggling with 50 Shades of Grey. I guess it just wasn't a book for me. But this new one was perfect! I'm half way through and I love it.

I also bought some English books today that will (hopefully) help me in Uni. :)

I just thought I'd say that we're in England and we're alive. Yesterday was such a long day, we we're at Gatwich Airport already at 09.00, but then we had to wait for our train for almost four hours. Our first train was late so we missed the second one. We came here probably at seven or something, and fell asleep pretty fast.

Today we went to the bank to talk about opening an English bank account. She wanted some passport details, and then she booked a meeting for me on Monday. I need to bring all information about my university, my Swedish bank and what I'm gonna do here... I hope everything goes well.

After the bank we went grocery shopping, and bought loads of food. Then Ellis went to work. :) He quit his main job already, but he still have two evenings a week at a shop.

I never thought this day would come.

I can finally start a life with my boy. <3

Adiós Suecia!

I'm trying to remember to be thankful for life and all the opportunities I get. This day has been full of both sad and happy tears. Sad because I'm leaving some of the people I love the most, but happy because I'm about to start my life in England. I feel blessed to have such amazing family and friends, who understands and supports me in everything I do. Thank you for all your love, you guys mean so much to me.

I can't even speak.

My boy learning Swedish :)

I can't believe it's only 2 days until I'm moving. I'm going from feeling really good to being so bad, but I guess that's a part of this. Today I need to pack the last things, go to the bank, get some passport photos and buy the last things I need. Tomorrow, the day before I move, we're going to watch the One Direction movie. My last day with my best friend.

Ellis and I have had a lot to do these last days. We've been to the cinema (The Heat & Monsters University), Gröna Lund and Wu-Tang, a bmx competition, Ikea, Skärholmen, and we were out running yesterday!

I worked my last day at coop last night. They gave me flowers, cinema tickets and wrote a lot of nice things on Facebook. <3 I'm gonna miss you guys!

I'm back in Stockholm after a really good time in Finland. I'm so glad Felicia could come with me, it made it all a lot better.

Now I'm at the bus station, waiting for my boy who should be here in 20 min. :)

Today was a rainy day, perfect for shopping! Since I've been saving money for so long I haven't really been able to buy any new clothes for a long while... So today I bought a bag and new shoes, my two favourite things to buy. And loads of other things.

Tomorrow we're taking the boat back, and on Monday I'm meeting my favourite boy in Stockholm. I can't believe our long distance relationship is over! Amazing. :)

We're at my grandparents place now. Our trip went well and today we went to their summer house. Tomorrow is a shopping day!

I went to Ikea today and I'm feeling so inspired. I just wish I had my own home.

I'm trying to get used to that I'm not gonna be here soon. I'll miss all these little things.

Before I started to work in a shop I actually thought that people didn't steel as much as they do. It really happens every day, all the time. Yesterday a woman came inside, took some beers and just walked out. What is wrong with people like that? Some even steel when they come in with their children, what good examples.

In Sweden you always have to pay 1 SEK extra for the bottle when you buy a drink, and then if you return the bottle you get it back. Anyway, this really is a problem, tourists never want to pay it. They start to ask if they can have it back now instead of returning it. Eh, the point is that you're gonna return it... Same thing with plastic bags! You have to pay 2 SEK and they complain and say that they don't have to pay in their own countries. Well, if it's a problem you can just bring your own bag. And it's good for the enviornment, why start bitchin about it?

And then there's just odd people. Yesterday a guy came in and asked for my number. 'I've seen you here a lot (well I work here, I'm not surprised you have), you look so beautiful, can I get your number? I want to take you out'. He smelt bad and wore dirty clothes, what did he think? Also, there's a man who always speaks French to me. I don't know if he thinks that I understand him, I just say 'yeah yeah' to everything.

Working in a shop might sound horrible now, but it actually is okay! Most people are really nice and we recognize so many of them because they keep coming back. I can't believe that I only have 3 shifts left, in 6 hours I'll only have 2.

It starts to get dark pretty early, the air smells like fall and I actually think it's a little cold. People are complaining that summer is over, but I seriously have nothing to complain about. The thing I love about Sweden is that we have four seasons, and I think I can say that I like them all. Also, this time is what I've been waiting for since the start of this year.

It's crazy how it went both fast and slowly at the same time. It fels like I just started University (January) and Coop (March), but it feels like it's forever since i left England (June). Time really makes me nervous sometimes, but everything makes me nervous nowdays. Or at least everything about London. It's not only that it's a new country, it's a new university with new people, a 'new' language, a new way of living, a new kind of relationship. If only one thing could stay as it is. I guess that thing just has to be me.

It's not like I start to change my mind or that I'm scared that I'm gonna want to go home. It's just that I want everything to go well. I'm scared that I'm gonna do bad in school because I don't know the language good enough. I'm scared that I won't meet people in school that I actually like and who likes me. I'm scared of our way of living, that's what scares me the most. I just feel that I want my privacy. I want to be able to walk around how I want, do what I want, and don't have to deal with other people when I don't want to. We'll see how that goes.

Another thing that I'm scared of is getting sick. You guys who actually know me, know that I get sick often. And when it happens I also get really bad. I was week for four weeks in Spain last year, I honestly thought I was gonna die. And that's when you wish you lived on your own so other people don't get annoyed when you're coughing and staying up all night. I even went home to Sweden for a week last year when I was really bad. This year I've only been really sick once (ta i trä eller vad det heter!) and I hope it stays like this. Maybe my immune system got better? I guess I'll find out soon anyway, my mum is having a relative over who just got really sick.

I go from being really excited to being really anxious in only a few seconds. I decided to not think about England too much these last weeks. Of course I have to get prepared and pack, but I'm trying not to think about all these things that worries me. I don't want to plan anything but doing great at university and get a job that I like. I just have to leave everything else until later.

When I'm there I'm gonna have to be so proud of myself. I have to remember that.

It's crazy how much a sleepless night can do. Or not do. It's hard to sleep because you're too tired, you feel sick if you eat because you're so tired and hungry, you're brain doesn't really work and the most simple things are suddenly hard to understand.

Remind me that I'm gonna live on an island in the future. With no people, so they can't have parties all night. Seriously, go somewhere else.

I just saw the cutest thing ever. A girl on the train was on the phone with somebody telling how nervous she was. She was taking deep breaths and even shaking a little. When it was time to get off a boy stood on the platform in his nicest t-shirt (probably) waiting for her, with flowers in his hands. They both smiled and ran into each others arms. That's love.

When you have a long distance relationship you can't really have a normal night together, so we need to have it on the phone.

I'm so happy, because I got new running shoes today! My old ones (they were only a few months old) broke, and I went to Inter Sport and asked if I could get new ones a few weeks ago. Now they finally called me today and said they had the new ones :)

And of course I went for a walk to try them, perfecto. 

Haha I had no idea it's possible to send things like this on Facebook, I'm feeling so old! And I still haven't watched these movies, not even the first one...

I've had such a cosy night at home. Watching all the tv-shows that I like, talking to people I like, about things I like... I'm starting to get a little sleepy now. Maybe I should go out for a little while, the air smells so fresh.

I'm also thinking about how lucky I am to have my amazing friends. I know that people love me, and it's such a good feeling. We always take things for granted and never think about what we actually have. I'm really a lucky girl <3

Sanna came to Coop today. She had no idea that I work there, and she thought I already left. That reminded me of how many people I should meet before I move... But I'm just here eating fruits and watching Top Model.

I was talking to a costumer at work today.

Me: Hej Hej
C: Hello, how are you today?
Me: I'm good, thank you. How are you?
C: I'm good!
Me: Where are you from, England?
C: Yes yes, from London!
Me: Really? I'm moving there soon
C: Really? Haha why? You're better of here, all European countries are better than England. Scandinavia is the best!
Me: Aha... Hehe....
C: Good luck in London, you'll be back in a month!

Costumer walks away.... Hahaha, what a happy boy.

I was on lunch reading the newspaper when I saw this Wu-Tang thing. It's only a little more than two weeks left, I'm so excited :)

It's finally Monday again, which means it's only two weeks until Ellis is here again. These first 1,5 felt like forever, but they always do. These last ones are gonna go a lot faster. When we see each other next time, our long distance relationship is over. And we're starting a 'normal' relationship. It doesn't feel like it's actually gonna happen... So crazy!

Today I'm going to the dentist. :( Even though I always take care of my teeth very well, there's always something wrong with them. So probably this time too... After the dentist I'm working 11.00-18.00, nice to finish early for once!

Btw, I was a lucky girl yesterday. Mama bought me two pairs of tights, and then I bought a third pair myself. The ones in the middle are really black and the ones on the right are camo green, they just look weird in the picture. I also got a perfume from my cousins, muchas gracias!

I'm out on my second long walk today. Just bought some snacks and having a break in the evening sun.

The Pride festival in Sweden is almost over, and I just want to say how happy and proud I am to live in a country where you don't have to be straight to get accepted. I hope all of you who were in Stockholm this weekend had a great time. I couldn't go to the festival because of work, but I had my Pride flag hanging in my room.

So much.

I was going to reply to a comment, but instead of replying I deleted it by accident, i guess I still don't know how to use blogg.se correctly in my phone, haha. So I'll just answer here:

First you asked where and how much I work. I work in a grocery store on the main train station in Stockholm. We're always busy because of the location I think, and that's why it's pretty stressful. :) I used to work maybe 12 hours/week when I first started, but I studied at that time too. Now in the summer I've had 4 weeks off so I could go to England and spend time with Ellis when he was here, so now I'm trying to work as much as I can.

And your other question was about how I met Ellis and what my plan is for England right? I met him in October last year when I was studying in Barcelona. We met a couple of times and when he went back to England we kept talking every day. A couple of weeks later he came to see me again and since then we've had a long distance relationship.

Ellis is coming here on August 19th and then we're going to England on 29th. The first weeks we're gonna stay at his mums, and then we're moving to London. I'm gonna study tourism. :)

Dags för Ellis att lära sej Svenska :)

I spent all day in Stockholm with Mathias, walking around in the sun. I really need more days like this, they're so cosy.

Now I just escaped from home. Since all my relatives are staying at our house, I decided to sleep at my mum's friends house. Perfect.

What a nice sleep I just had. I still feel a bit tired but that's more than okay since I have another day off today. I'm gonna spend it with my dear friend Mathias. We're meeting at one at the train station, but we don't know what to do yet.

I just cleaned the apartment. My mum is coming home from Finland today, and she's bringing her sister and my cousins so I thought it could be nice if it was clean when they arrive. I'm not gonna see them much though. They are gonna sleep here tonight and on Sunday, tomorrow they are going to a wedding.

Today it's 17 days until he's here again.

A lot of people at Coop bought flowers yesterday. Most of them were young guys, buying to their girlfriends I guess. A girl I worked with wondered where our flowers are.

Today an old man told me about how he lost the love of his life a long time ago. A sad story, I felt sorry for him.

I felt sorry for myself because I am in so much pain, so after motivating myself to go out for hours, I finally did. I went to Coop to buy candy and stuff, but on my way home it started to rain a lot. Also, I miss my boyfriend.

I felt like the most lonely girl for a short time, until I talked to my best friend on the phone. It's crazy how another person can cheer you up.

Now I'm gonna put my pyjama on and watch tv forever.

They asked me if I could work extra today, but since I still had a headache and felt tired I said no. And thank God I did! Today I woke up with the worst period pain ever. So I'm just gonna rest, go to lunch with my dad and... Eat more.

Muchas gracias for this comment btw: