Hmm, I don't know if it's better do just quit blogging, or do it once every now and then... I read my last post and that was after Simple Session, crazy! It's been more than a month since we came back home, and I guess I should try to tell you about this last month. I just don't know what to say, it's almost like I can't remember what has happened. I'll try my best anyway.

 

• I quit my Zumba job. It was more or less impossible to stay as I had to choose between uni and work. 
• Mami was here last week for 5 days. So nice!
• Ellis and I went to Birmingham to see Drake live. It was amazing!
• I passed all my exams :D Even accounting, that I was sure I failed!
• We had a belly dance show last weekend, a lot of fun!
• I was at a job interview last week at an English restaurant, got a trial shift next week :)

Every time I've been on an airplane I seem to get sick, and it was no difference this time. On Saturday in Estonia my throat started to hurt and on Sunday when I woke up I was feeling like a bag of potatoes. Other than that our trip was great! We stayed at a nice and cosy apartment hotel that was close to both Old Town and the City Centre. We could take a bus straight to the competition, and we spent all Saturday and Sunday there. I'm still having BMX and skate fever, and watch clips over and over again.

 

Now I'm just waiting to feel better. I've been in bed the last few days and missed uni. I'm still really bad but I do feel like yesterday was worse, so maybe I'll try to do some uni work at home. I cancelled my Zumba class as well, which really feels bad because I know how much some of the students enjoy it. Well well, next week...

 

 

 

 

Okay, so term two started off with a Management class yesterday and Business and Finance today. I barely understood the introduction on Finance as I left for work after only 45 minutes, but I'll try to catch up by reading the course books for next week. 

 

A few years ago when I was still teaching in Sweden I thought about opening up my own dance business. I don't mean that I was going to build my own studio and have it as a full time career, but just have my own classes and rent a place. It would have given me both more money, and given me the right to decide everything. Anyway, the thing is that I've started to think about doing this again, here in London! If I would rent a studio maybe in a school, a few hours a week and maybe have jazz classes for children and zumba for adults?

 

Ellis is really good at making websites, and I think I'm gonna start off with that. When the website id up I would need some pictures and videos up there, and those I could work on this spring. Ellis is studying digital film production so he could help me with that as well. His mum (who has her own yoga courses) and one of my teachers in uni could help me with all the legal things, and then I could start advertisinc at the end of the summer and start classes in September. How good isn't that? We'll see what happens, but I think this would be a good way of financing my living here :) 

 

Tomorrow morning we're leaving for Tallinn and Simple Sessions. Before that I wanted to show you the crazy selfie thing that we (okay: that I) started! I'm gonna collect selfies and make a collage......

I should get a price for the worst blogger ever. When was the last time I wrote here? I can't even remember. Anyway. I spent a week in Sweden a few weeks ago and got the worst flu ever the first day. I was sick for the whole week and didn't have energy to study much for the exam week. Exams are over, I failed accounting but hopefully passed the other ones. 

 

Last weekend was probably the first when I haven't been stressed at all. I've been sleeping, going to belly dance classes and just spent time with E at home. After a lot of rain the weather finally was on our side and we spent some time outside, walking in central and South Bank. I feel like a new person after this weekend, and suddenly I feel like I have energy to do things.

 

On my birthday we went to Zizzi's to eat pizza and then watched 12 years a slave in the cinema. I got tickets to Billy Elliott the musical as a present, and we went to see it a few days after. Words can't even describe how amazing it was... :') Made me wonder why I never became a musical artist. On Valentine's Day we just stayed home. The weather was horrible but I made breakfast and E cooked dinner. We watched movies all night and had a very cosy night in. 

 

Today we're starting a new term with a new timetable. I barely have any morning classes which is both good and bad I guess. I kind of like mornings and waking up early, and I study a lot better in the mornings so I will have a lot of time to work on assignments. I just don't know how much fun it is to stay in Uni until 6 p.m, but I can't really complain. I just need to figure out what to do with Zumba. I have Zumba & Finance at the same time... We'll see.

 

On Friday we're finally going to Estonia and Simple Session! My bestie Sara is coming from Sweden as well, and we've rented an apartment for three days. It's gonna be so nice to just change environment for a while, spend time with my favourites and watch the competition :)

 

 

I dropped my UK phone in the sink the other day, and today my Swedish stopped working while I was trying to call my mum. It's like... how can two phones break on the same week? I'm a lot more poorer now after buying a new phone, but hoping for this job that I applied for. It is at a dance studio, and I went to an interview earlier this this. It weent good, but she was interviewing 24 others as well, and only one gets the job! Well well... You never know :)

Somebody who always supports me and shows me that she is there for me is a girl I just to teach dance to. Something that really makes me impressed is when these people who I know has been through a lot still has the energy to be there for others, who almost want to fix your problems even though they have much more serious things on their minds. When I felt stressed the most,she talked me through it,and she also sent me a link of a video. The video was recorded a few years ago, when I still used to teach dance in my home town. I still think the girls were amazing (it was only semester three!), but I don't know how good my coreography skills were, haha. However, I've watched this video over and over again. It puts a smile on my face and wants to make me cry. It was the best job I ever had, it was the nicest group ever and we really had that family feeling. I miss you girls, and I really hope to see all of you again at some point :)

 

I would have posted the video here, if it didn't say error -.-

 

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iKSG6Ix5O4k :)

 

 

Hi fellas.

 

If I only wrote on here a little more often I probably could avoid this two hour posts that you have to go through.I don't know why I never have time to update, but it's just a lot of other stuff that feels more important, and I'm still thinking about starting a Swedish blog again so it doesn't feel necessary to write anymore. At the same time I have so much to say. I have always liked writing, will always do.

 

Last Friday we finally moved. After all the problems, stress and sleepless nights I felt like I was in heaven when we finally got the keys to our new house. It's an old victorian house made into four apartments, and we have the top floor. There is a living room, kitchen, bedroom and a large bathroom. We also have one little room as extra space to store things. The day after we moved I went to Sweden, and I'm still here so I'll show you pictures once I'm back home again.However, I'm really happy with the new place and it really feels like a huge problem has been solved.

 

As soon as I came to Sweden I got a bad flu. I can't breathe, taste food or sleep... nothing really works. At the same time I need to study for the exams so bad, as they are taking place next week. Yesterday I started to realise how much it is that we have to know, and how impossible it is to learn all that. First of all we don't have time to find all the information, and second... how are we supposed to remember it all? It just doesn't work. Today I'm gonna try to sort out what's most important and then study from there.

 

I've spent a few evenings with my friend Sara. On Saturday night she came over for a couple of hours, and yesterday we went to the cinema and had a sleepover. I've also had some relatives over this weekend since it's my birthday on Friday. I can't believe I'm gonna be 23! Feels like I was 16 only weeks ago... Anyway, Sara got me really nice Hello Kitty headphones and then I got some belly dance things that she was supposed to give me like last summer but always forgot, haha :)

 

From my dance studio I got a free class which I'm really happy for! I missed class this week and  will miss another when we go to Estonia. Luckily I could reschedule those weeks, so I can take double classes the weeks after. This Saturday I'm supposed to go to a workshop with Hossam & Serena Ramzy(!) so I really hope this flu goes away before that.

 

Next week I am going for a job interview! I applied for a reception job at a dance studio, and they emailed me last night and said that hundreds of people applied, but that they were happy with my CV and wanted me to come for a short interview. If I get through the short one I'll get invited to a longer and more detailed interview... They will see mayeb 20 people, and only one gets the job so I guess my chances aren't too good, but I'm gonna do my best!

 

I seriously can't cope with this stress anymore. I haven't really had time to write on here for a while, but let's just say that nothing has changed. We're having so many problems with the new flat, and if they aren't sorted by Friday we just can't move in. Then it goes to somebody else. It's really hard to be young, or at least a student, in London. The prices are stupidly high, and you only get to rent if you've got rich parents or a lot of money saved. We'll see how this goes. Once again they have given us a move in date, but who knows what's gonna come up now.

 

I'm doing worse in uni of course. I'm having stomach pains and headaches all the time, and can't really focus on uni work. The exams are coming up in two weeks and while everybody else is doing really good on the mock exams, I can't even write enough words. I'm starting to believe in Maslow's hierarchy of needs, when you don't feel good physically nothing else works either.

 

School has always been pretty easy for me, I was never an A kid, but I passed everything. Now I'm sure that I'm gonna fail accounting, and it doesn't matter how many videos I watch, how much I read or try to understand, numbers just isn't my thing. And I need to pass to get to year 2 and 3. I need to.

 

Sorry for complaining all the time. It's time for a new me soon, when I'm ready.

I'm so thankful for the dance classes I go to. It's a few hours every week when I can just forget all the stress.

 

Finally we're closer to a moving date. We got a call yesterday and now we just need Ellis mum to sign and send a guarantor form, and then they're gonna do a check up on all three of us. If that goes okay we should be able to move at the end of this week. We hope Friday!

 

I'm having big problems with CSN and my loan. Our course time has changed and from the start we were supposed to have a break between week 10-20, which means I'm not getting any CSN during that time. However, now that it's changed I'll be in uni those weeks as well, but they still won't give me any loan. After paying all the fees and deposit and first rent on this new place I'll be in trouble. Please please CSN, work with me!

 

The job that I went to have a trial at won't pay me enough, so I'm trying to negotiate with them as well. I only have a few days a week I can work because of studies which means I need to have a job with a 'ok' amount of pay. We'll see... If they don't agree to pay me more I just have to try to look for something else.

 

I'm also pretty sure that I'll fail the accounting exam.

 

Life is so stressful right now.

Monday morning and we still haven't heard anything. The good thing is that when they last phoned us it was around lunchtime, so they might not even be open until 11 am or something. If they don't phone us, we will have to contact them and say that we need the contract signed, otherwise we'll have to get our deposit back and find something else. And they probably don't want to give it back, so they have to fix it.

 

The weekend went fast.and I really enjoyed my belly dance class yesterday. Last week I wasn't feeling good and my whole body was swollen, and I was mad at myself for not doing better. This week was the opposite, everything just made sense and worked out well. I'm gonna miss two classes: one because I'm in Sweden, and the other one when we're in Estonia for Simple Session. The night Before our show I'm in Birmingham to see Drake, but we might go home early the day after so I can do the show. I started to look at costumes on the belly dance school's website. I really wonder what we're gonna wear... Hopefully something red or pink, those colours make me look not as pale as I am haha.

 

Apparently we are going to get the house, but the guy who has moved out from there still needs to sign some papers before the landlord can give it to us. I really want to think that we are getting it, but since things didn't work out last time I don't want to get too excited. The guy who was supposed to move in here this weekend was okay with moving in next week instead, so now we really have to leave soon. I really hope they phone us on Monday and that we can move in that week.

 

On Monday I am going to Beckenham to teach a Zumba class. I applied for a job there and they invited me to a trial. I hope everything goes well, because it looks like I will be teaching two classes a week if I get the job. That would mean that I have a total of three classes every week, which is good Money. And money is exactly what I need since we're moving to a lot more expensive place than this.

 

This weekend I'm just studying. I have so much uni work to do. Assignments to hand in, a portfolio to complete and mock exams to study for. Luckily I have a bellydance class tomorrow, it's gonna be nice doing something else and just not think for a while.

 

Seriously... The agency called us last night and said that the couple that are living in our new place are having problems with the apartment they were going to buy. Which means that they can't move out. That means we can't move there no more. We were both so excited... and we have to be out in 9 days. We went to look for a house last night with the same agency. It was a little too expensive for us so we put a lower offer, so we'll see how that goes... At least they will try to negotiate since we didn't get our first place. I'm so stressed... We'll be homeless soon.

Ten days until we're moving and I'm starting to get really excited. So excited that I started to pack today... It's only two suitcases so far, and most for the reason that we have so much stuff and our room is so small.

 

Yesterday Ellis and I went for a nice walk by the river, and then I Went to a dancehall class with Ruth, a girl from my class. We both really enjoyed it and talked about going next week again.

 

Today when I woke up I had the worst headache ever, but decided to go to uni anyway hoping that it would get better later. On my way there I felt my head get more and more heavy, and in class I could barely keep my Eyes open. I left after 30 min. Apparently there's a lot of people who are getting sick now in our class, we just have to hope it won't stay long.

 

 

While mum is sending me pictures of a white and cold Sweden, the weather is starting to be really nice here in London. It's still cold, but it has been sunny for days now. I went to my second belly dance class yesterday which was fun, but I have become so bad! Really need to do some practice at home...

 

12 days until we're moving. A few weeks until I go back to Sweden. I decided to go there the week before exam week. It's probably better like that, otherwise I'll just find excuses not to study if Ellis is around :)