Miss You
But I still need you, why is that?
You're the only image in my mind
So I still see you... around
I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but you're away
Said I miss you, missing you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same?
Words don't ever seem to come out right
But I still mean them, why is that?
It hurts my pride to tell you how I feel
But I still need to, why is that?
I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but you're away
I said I miss you, missing you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same?
99 Problems
Before I started to work in a shop I actually thought that people didn't steel as much as they do. It really happens every day, all the time. Yesterday a woman came inside, took some beers and just walked out. What is wrong with people like that? Some even steel when they come in with their children, what good examples.
In Sweden you always have to pay 1 SEK extra for the bottle when you buy a drink, and then if you return the bottle you get it back. Anyway, this really is a problem, tourists never want to pay it. They start to ask if they can have it back now instead of returning it. Eh, the point is that you're gonna return it... Same thing with plastic bags! You have to pay 2 SEK and they complain and say that they don't have to pay in their own countries. Well, if it's a problem you can just bring your own bag. And it's good for the enviornment, why start bitchin about it?
And then there's just odd people. Yesterday a guy came in and asked for my number. 'I've seen you here a lot (well I work here, I'm not surprised you have), you look so beautiful, can I get your number? I want to take you out'. He smelt bad and wore dirty clothes, what did he think? Also, there's a man who always speaks French to me. I don't know if he thinks that I understand him, I just say 'yeah yeah' to everything.
Working in a shop might sound horrible now, but it actually is okay! Most people are really nice and we recognize so many of them because they keep coming back. I can't believe that I only have 3 shifts left, in 6 hours I'll only have 2.
Thrift Shop
Get up
It starts to get dark pretty early, the air smells like fall and I actually think it's a little cold. People are complaining that summer is over, but I seriously have nothing to complain about. The thing I love about Sweden is that we have four seasons, and I think I can say that I like them all. Also, this time is what I've been waiting for since the start of this year.
It's crazy how it went both fast and slowly at the same time. It fels like I just started University (January) and Coop (March), but it feels like it's forever since i left England (June). Time really makes me nervous sometimes, but everything makes me nervous nowdays. Or at least everything about London. It's not only that it's a new country, it's a new university with new people, a 'new' language, a new way of living, a new kind of relationship. If only one thing could stay as it is. I guess that thing just has to be me.
It's not like I start to change my mind or that I'm scared that I'm gonna want to go home. It's just that I want everything to go well. I'm scared that I'm gonna do bad in school because I don't know the language good enough. I'm scared that I won't meet people in school that I actually like and who likes me. I'm scared of our way of living, that's what scares me the most. I just feel that I want my privacy. I want to be able to walk around how I want, do what I want, and don't have to deal with other people when I don't want to. We'll see how that goes.
Another thing that I'm scared of is getting sick. You guys who actually know me, know that I get sick often. And when it happens I also get really bad. I was week for four weeks in Spain last year, I honestly thought I was gonna die. And that's when you wish you lived on your own so other people don't get annoyed when you're coughing and staying up all night. I even went home to Sweden for a week last year when I was really bad. This year I've only been really sick once (ta i trä eller vad det heter!) and I hope it stays like this. Maybe my immune system got better? I guess I'll find out soon anyway, my mum is having a relative over who just got really sick.
I go from being really excited to being really anxious in only a few seconds. I decided to not think about England too much these last weeks. Of course I have to get prepared and pack, but I'm trying not to think about all these things that worries me. I don't want to plan anything but doing great at university and get a job that I like. I just have to leave everything else until later.
When I'm there I'm gonna have to be so proud of myself. I have to remember that.
Sleepless night
It's crazy how much a sleepless night can do. Or not do. It's hard to sleep because you're too tired, you feel sick if you eat because you're so tired and hungry, you're brain doesn't really work and the most simple things are suddenly hard to understand.
Remind me that I'm gonna live on an island in the future. With no people, so they can't have parties all night. Seriously, go somewhere else.
Advice from a tree
Love
I just saw the cutest thing ever. A girl on the train was on the phone with somebody telling how nervous she was. She was taking deep breaths and even shaking a little. When it was time to get off a boy stood on the platform in his nicest t-shirt (probably) waiting for her, with flowers in his hands. They both smiled and ran into each others arms. That's love.
Life is a beautiful struggle
Teenage Boys
Counting
Late nights
When you have a long distance relationship you can't really have a normal night together, so we need to have it on the phone.
Quotes
Feel this moment
Running Shoes
I'm so happy, because I got new running shoes today! My old ones (they were only a few months old) broke, and I went to Inter Sport and asked if I could get new ones a few weeks ago. Now they finally called me today and said they had the new ones :)
And of course I went for a walk to try them, perfecto.
Despicable Me
Haha I had no idea it's possible to send things like this on Facebook, I'm feeling so old! And I still haven't watched these movies, not even the first one...
Lucky Girl
I've had such a cosy night at home. Watching all the tv-shows that I like, talking to people I like, about things I like... I'm starting to get a little sleepy now. Maybe I should go out for a little while, the air smells so fresh.
I'm also thinking about how lucky I am to have my amazing friends. I know that people love me, and it's such a good feeling. We always take things for granted and never think about what we actually have. I'm really a lucky girl <3
Truth
Top Model
Sanna came to Coop today. She had no idea that I work there, and she thought I already left. That reminded me of how many people I should meet before I move... But I'm just here eating fruits and watching Top Model.
London
I was talking to a costumer at work today.
Me: Hej Hej
C: Hello, how are you today?
Me: I'm good, thank you. How are you?
C: I'm good!
Me: Where are you from, England?
C: Yes yes, from London!
Me: Really? I'm moving there soon
C: Really? Haha why? You're better of here, all European countries are better than England. Scandinavia is the best!
Me: Aha... Hehe....
C: Good luck in London, you'll be back in a month!
Costumer walks away.... Hahaha, what a happy boy.